Mama was rushed to the hospital yesterday and admitted, after a series of falls that left her with 4 cracked ribs. She also has other more alarming issues that we cannot pinpoint yet. She throws up a lot, her troponin levels are high, and her bloodwork is off. She is 77 yrs old, with vascular dementia, and lives at an amazing care home.
We (both the owner of the facility and I) had a helluva time getting the visiting doctor’s office and doctor.
Our elderly are seen as disposable in this world, especially once they have dementia and this is so grossly unfair and inhumane. Needless to say, I put my foot down this time and wouldn’t budge.
This diet has helped me not to binge in the midst of crisis, something I am normally super prone to doing.
Today’s “Daily Prompt” from my support group was to write down no less than 10 of my strengths. This is a difficult one for me, but here goes:
1. I am persistent
2. I am loyal
3. I have a deeply ingrained sense of responsibility to others and myself
4. I am funny
5. I am loving
6. I am fearless
7. I am lucky for others
8. I love making people feel good about themselves
9. I am inuitive
10. I am weird
Ok, so that was hard and seemed way too self-centered for my comfort. Ugh. I love these exercises because they take me out of my comfort zone and I like it. I enjoy being out of my comfort zone for some reason. It always leads to growth.
I am going to focus on eating less bars and doing more shakes and soups and variety. All of my fuelings are still in the big box because I have nowhere to store them yet.
R bought a ton of shrimp for my lean & green meals, so I need to eat that for the duration. I am getting a bit sick of salads, so maybe a scampi-type thing next with cauliflower rice for dinner. Whatever is easy. It doesn’t matter. Food is fuel for me right now.
Morning Weight: 171.6 (woot, going back down despite the fact that I must be made of pure cortisol from the stress)
1 hour 10 min. cardio
92 oz of water
12:55 am- 1st fueling: CARAMEL CRISP BAR and a big cup of coffee
3:15 pm– 2nd fueling: WILD RICE & CHICKEN FLAVORED SOUP W/CARROTS, CELERY, ONION, PEAS, AND SHIITAKE MUSHROOMS (had this before. It needs a pinch of salt and some spices. My body doesn’t retain sodium well, so I need to adjust everything for my body).
5:45 pm- 3rd fueling: SOUR CREAM & CHIVE WAFFLED POTATOES with laughing cow cheese
7:45 pm- 4th fueling: YOGURT BERRY BLAST shake
9:45 pm-Lean and Green meal: GARLIC SHRIMP AND CAULIFLOWER (R BOUGHT SO MUCH SHRIMP, I NEED TO USE IT UP- plus I needed to start eating earlier. I can’t deal with big meals so late at night,) It was SO good, so satisfying. 7 oz of shrimp is A LOT. I think I may have gone over my fat allowance, but not by much.
11:30 pm-5th fueling: HONEY MUSTARD & ONION STICKS