What happens at Xmas stays at Xmas, but I didn’t successfully keep to plan. I ended up sick as a result and today is the day of reckoning and relaxation and self-forgiveness.
My house currently looks like Harry Potter threw up in it. The kiddo is OBSESSED. I am doing a surprise redecorating of her bedroom. Bought almost everything on here today (from Pottery Barn’s site).
Her bedroom is not as big as this in the little house, so we will do what we can… At my other house, this would be doable, but it’s currently being used as an office by family members staying there and working remotely. I like this little house so much. It’s so cozy.
Tonight’s lean and green consisted of sous vide grass-fed sirloin, veggies, and eggplant rollatini leftovers from Xmas eve at R’s parents.
Resting Heart Rate: 71 (alcohol made it jump up A LOT… won’t be doing that for a long while) Morning Weight: IDK 2,932 steps 2 min cardio 96 oz of water
12:00 pm- 1st fueling: CARAMEL DELIGHT CRISP BAR AND COFFEE
Mama was rushed to the hospital yesterday and admitted, after a series of falls that left her with 4 cracked ribs. She also has other more alarming issues that we cannot pinpoint yet. She throws up a lot, her troponin levels are high, and her bloodwork is off. She is 77 yrs old, with vascular dementia, and lives at an amazing care home.
We (both the owner of the facility and I) had a helluva time getting the visiting doctor’s office and doctor.
Our elderly are seen as disposable in this world, especially once they have dementia and this is so grossly unfair and inhumane. Needless to say, I put my foot down this time and wouldn’t budge.
This diet has helped me not to binge in the midst of crisis, something I am normally super prone to doing.
Today’s “Daily Prompt” from my support group was to write down no less than 10 of my strengths. This is a difficult one for me, but here goes:
1. I am persistent
2. I am loyal
3. I have a deeply ingrained sense of responsibility to others and myself
4. I am funny
5. I am loving
6. I am fearless
7. I am lucky for others
8. I love making people feel good about themselves
9. I am inuitive
10. I am weird
Ok, so that was hard and seemed way too self-centered for my comfort. Ugh. I love these exercises because they take me out of my comfort zone and I like it. I enjoy being out of my comfort zone for some reason. It always leads to growth.
I am going to focus on eating less bars and doing more shakes and soups and variety. All of my fuelings are still in the big box because I have nowhere to store them yet.
R bought a ton of shrimp for my lean & green meals, so I need to eat that for the duration. I am getting a bit sick of salads, so maybe a scampi-type thing next with cauliflower rice for dinner. Whatever is easy. It doesn’t matter. Food is fuel for me right now.
Day 6– Morning Weight: 171.6 (woot, going back down despite the fact that I must be made of pure cortisol from the stress) 15,245 steps 1 hour 10 min. cardio 92 oz of water
12:55 am- 1st fueling: CARAMEL CRISP BAR and a big cup of coffee
3:15 pm– 2nd fueling: WILD RICE & CHICKEN FLAVORED SOUP W/CARROTS, CELERY, ONION, PEAS, AND SHIITAKE MUSHROOMS (had this before. It needs a pinch of salt and some spices. My body doesn’t retain sodium well, so I need to adjust everything for my body). 5:45 pm- 3rd fueling: SOUR CREAM & CHIVE WAFFLED POTATOES with laughing cow cheese 7:45 pm- 4th fueling: YOGURT BERRY BLAST shake
9:45 pm-Lean and Green meal: GARLIC SHRIMP AND CAULIFLOWER (R BOUGHT SO MUCH SHRIMP, I NEED TO USE IT UP- plus I needed to start eating earlier. I can’t deal with big meals so late at night,) It was SO good, so satisfying. 7 oz of shrimp is A LOT. I think I may have gone over my fat allowance, but not by much. 11:30 pm-5th fueling: HONEY MUSTARD & ONION STICKS
I know that the initial loss is almost always water weight, but it still makes me super happy-
I find it interesting that I quit daily weigh-ins back in April when I was already upset about my creeping weight.
My initial (small) weight loss goal is 160. My pre-Maisie weight is 133-140, which is my ultimate goal. At that size, I am generally a size 4/6. Any smaller and I look too thin… but I don’t even remember what ‘too thin’ is. I’ve always been a sturdy human, albeit a muscular one.
Until now I’ve just been getting steps by rebounding with a Leaps & Rebounds mini-trampoline. That thing saved my LIFE/our LIVES through Covid and pulmonary embolism and lupus autoimmune disease.
I have a lifetime discount from the company. If you’re interested in one use MISSMAISIE10 to get 10% off your order at leapsandrebounds.com.
Starting tomorrow, I hope to incorporate DDP yoga into the mix. I bought the program years ago, but it’s still a tried and true winner for me. I will also be going back to the gym to hit the weights by 1 January. I haven’t lifted in years and at my age, I need the muscle.
I need to remember to keep setting my alarms for the fuelings. I was late for my second one yesterday and it messed up my eating schedule. Having dinner at 11 pm is not ideal for me.
I am in a group where they told us to write a letter to our younger selves. I would have told myself to quit smoking, start working out daily, take vitamins, DRINK WATER, and WASH MY FACE 2x a day and BEFORE BED WITHOUT FAIL. I would have told myself to get my a** into therapy. I would have told her she was enough and stuff was going to work out AND TO ALWAYS GO FOR IT.
Today, the group asked what our younger selves would have replied. Mine would have been pretty shocked and happy, I think. She’d be a little upset that I got this heavy and had a chronic illness. She’s also be shocked with how I look, which is exactly how I envisioned and hoped I’d look when I was younger. I am almost 53 and didn’t expect to weather this well as a young’un.
I *do* represent the L’BRI company and it’s the secret to my oddly Benjamin Buttoning face. Check it out at linktr.ee/missmaisieandme. I was my face 2x a day and it keeps my head and neck from falling on the ground. Best skincare I’ve ever experienced in my ENTIRE LIFE.
Hell, I didn’t even know how to wash my face properly until my 52nd birthday when I tried it.
Now I want my body to match what’s going on from the neck up.
Wave of fatigue hit me around 9 pm. I am so sleepy, but have one more meal (the Lean and Green) to go. I also have steps that need doing. I think it’s time for a laydown.
OK, NOW FOR MY STATS OF THE DAY:
Day 4– 16,034 steps 1 hour 46 min cardio 80 oz or more of water
10:45 am- 1st fueling: CHOCOLATE MINT COOKIE CRISP BAR (kinda tastes like a Thin Mint Girl Scout cookie)
1:00 pm– 2nd fueling: DOUBLE PEANUT BUTTER BAR (will order again, so far my fave)
4:00 pm- 3rd fueling: JALAPENO CHEDDAR POPPERS (still not my fave, kinda like spicy cheetos, but I need to eat them up- won’t order them again. Some people adore them, just not my thing)
6:00 pm- 4th fueling: ROASTED GARLIC SMASHED POTATOES waffled with a pinch of reduced fat cheddar- WOW! MY FAVE FUELING SO FAR!! DEFINITELY re-ordering these next month.
8:45 pm- 5th fueling: SPINACH PESTO MAC AND CHEESE (my first time trying this one. Also required microwaving, like the penne.) VERDICT: NOT A FAN, EVEN WITH DOCTORING. I will eat it up, but never again. Gimme the penne every day. This tends to overboil in the microwave. I cook them in pyrex measuring cups, for convenience. I am leaning toward liking the savory hearty things best for flavor and the bars for convenience. I have only tried one of the shakes, mostly because I am sick to death of shakes after trying the 310 program (unsuccessfully).
10:45 pm- Lean and Green meal: Black truffle omelet with salad, avo, mushrooms (I needed to use up the other half of the avocado)
So, yeah, back at it again. I have to keep a journal while on it, so blogging counts. I am an inconsistent blogger and ditto with journaling, but this kills 2 birds with one stone. I also need to keep accountable.
I’ve avoided scales, exercise, moderation since my 52nd birthday last February, when I plunged into a world of “I WORK 16 HOURS A DAY AND DON’T HAVE TIME TO COOK ANYMORE-LAND” (albeit from my sofa).
For the last two weeks I’ve been prepping for the day this box arrived (it only took a couple of days after ordering, but I wanted to make sure I had my step/rebounding/exercise habits back by doing 12-17k steps on rebounder a day.)
On day 2 I cooked a ton of chicken breast in the oven for my lean and green meals. One pan was done Filipino Adobo style, the other was done Greek Chicken style. 2 bags of frozen chicken breasts equaled EIGHT Lean and Green meal servings. Way cheaper than buying pre-cooked chicken breasts and I have zero time to cook anymore because I work and homeschool all day from my house.
STARTING WEIGHT: 178.9 (omg this is so embarrassing. I am now 30 lbs. OVER my “I still need to lose the baby weight”, which I could never do in the past. Basically, 150 became my post-partum, post-middle age spread weight. I am 30 lbs OVER THIS NOW. No wonder my BP and heart are going insane lately).
Day 1– 14,124 steps 1 hour 26 min cardio
5 pm- 1st fueling: CARAMEL DELIGHT CRISP BAR (ok) 7:23 pm- 2nd fueling: HONEY MUSTARD AND ONION SNACKS (my fave) 9:30 pm- 3rd fueling: SMORES BAR (just ok) 11:30 pm- 4th fueling: another bar of some sort 1:30 am- 5th fueling: WILD RICE SOUP (good, needed spice doctoring) 3:30 am (yes, I ate way late)- Lean and Grean meal: cauliflower and chicken breast (the amount seemed too much at the time after all those tiny meals, but slept well and was so full).
Day 2 14, 542 steps 1 hour 12 min cardio
Woke at 10:40 am
11:10 am 1st fueling with coffee (black): CREAMY DOUBLE PEANUT BUTTER CRISP BAR (best bar so far)
1:30 pm 2nd fueling, with my 64 oz jug of water: MINT CRISP BAR (this was ok)
6:30 4th fueling: JALAPENO CHEDDAR POPPERS (OK, not my fave… reminded me of spicy cheetos, though). Helped me get more water down, so bonus.
9:25 pm 5th Fueling: RUSTIC PENNE (shockingly delicious and filling when doctored with garlic powder and spices)
11:45 Lean and Green Meal: 6 oz of Filipino Adobo Chicken breast with 3 servings of cauliflower (AGAIN, A TON OF FOOD).
FIRST TWO DAY THOUGHTS AND OBSERVATIONS:
Because I tend to go whole hog when I am faced with something new and exciting- or am in the mood for self-discipline/torture, this has been ridiculously easy for me. Learning to eat the snacks every 2 hours was weird. I never snack. The box of food ‘fuelings’ are all easy to eat like snacks or microwavable or the like. The only meals I have to worry about are the Lean and Green meals. 3 servings of appropriate veg, basically (covered in the guide) and about 6-7 oz of protein… which is a ton of food after noshing on small snacks all day and drinking coffee and water.
Once you eyeball (or get a food scale), knowing the proper amount of food to eat for the one prepared meal is super easy.
They have recipes and hacks online for people who like to cook, but I was good with what I had and really shocked at how easy it has been. It’s absolutely grab and go.
No dizziness. I have a ton of energy. No keto flu. Zilch.
I haven’t been working as much as I should due to my family going through a number of deaths and illnesses in the last 2 months- this week has been particularly scary and stressful. I would normally eat for comfort and I haven’t been… I mean, having to eat every 2-3 hours (set an alarm on phone or alexa) kinda stops a person from grabbing unhealthy crap to shove in your mouth hole.
I feel like I have binge-protection insurance.
I am actually looking forward to my weigh-in tomorrow.
They also have a ‘modest’ swimwear collection and beach pants that look interesting. Since it’s the middle of frigid winter in Michigan, I haven’t had the chance to try this brand out yet- but beach season is just around the corner if we survive covid and the US government.
I have been more interested in comfortable loungewear, since the lockdown began. Coming to greet the UPS man in a granny gown or ratty bathrobe or leggings gets SO boring.
Our 2nd round of covid hit us in November and Maisie has developed a slight case of MIS-C, which scares the hell out of us right now. Recovery from this dreadful virus was harder the second time around and even 6 weeks post positive, we find ourselves with constant fatigue and wearing things that are comfortable and easy to wash/wear/sleep in.
I’ve never been into fake rings. My mother is a jewelry addict and she always was dripping in real diamonds. I’ve never been much of a diamond person myself, even though I own a ton of them (mostly, because of her). I will admit to being skeptical when I found out I’d be receiving this Berricle ring to review… now I am kind of flabbergasted- especially considering the price ($56.90- plus an additional 30% off coupon code right now).
“This solitaire with side stones ring is made of rhodium plated fine 925 sterling silver. Band measures 2.5mm in width. Features 1.86 carat oval cut cubic zirconia (9mm x 7mm) in 4-prong setting. Accented with 0.47 ct.tw round cut cubic zirconia in micro pave setting. Nickel free.”
When I opened the box, I couldn’t believe how real it looked (compared to my real diamond jewelry) and how heavy the weight was. It sparkles exactly like a real diamond!
This one absolutely amazes me. Next to my expensive real rings, it actually looks better.
I was told that many people have been buying Berricle and other synthetic diamonds, such as ASHA and NSCD/Sona rings, as ‘stand ins’ for their real jewelry. I can now see why they would! These aren’t your run of the mill fakes!
With my genuine/antique/real rings, I am constantly worried that I will lose stones. It’s EXPENSIVE to get stones replaced- especially if you have heirloom pieces with one-of-a-kind gems.
Not with this ring. I plan on wearing it and not worrying about it. Also, I am curious to see how long it stays beautiful and shiny with regular use.
I will keep this on and see how it holds up in the future and report back.