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Rough morning after 2 weeks of smooth recovery

Been feeling better than anyone could have imagined, with having pulmonary embolisms in both lungs. My lung sounds and functions were clear, my ‘spells’ less so- I felt fantastic… until this morning when I woke abruptly this morning.

I woke up at 6 am, sweating and not able to catch breath. It’s 2 weeks since I was diagnosed with bilateral PEs and I haven’t had a ‘spell’ like this in over a week. I’d been feeling better.

I feel like it burns all the way into the middle of both lungs, hard to catch an inhalation, feel like I have to cough phlegm, but nothing.

My bp is lower than normal 102/80. I woke with tachycardia (fast heart rate) over 120, that went down to the 90s.

I’ve not had spells this bad since the hospital. My pulse ox reads anywhere from 93-98, depending.

I still can’t take a deep breath right now… it’s getting better, but it’s scary nonetheless.

I don’t drink, don’t smoke. I just started getting my steps back up from nil to 7k the last three days. I’m on the ketogenic diet.

When they said recovery is a process with pulmonary embolisms, they were not kidding. I can have relatively normal, excellent days- then BAM! Scary, back to square one.

Some folks in my support group say it takes months to years to recover.

My stubborn self was hoping for WEEKS. I push myself too hard. I am depressed, as much as I can be. Mostly because I don’t like to be idle.

Saw my gynecological oncologist this week and everything in that area is looking great since the hysterectomy. This surgery caused my PEs, btw.

I am too ornery and cantankerous to die. Too much to do… and I have a child to care for.

I refuse to succumb, but if anything happens to me, tell my baby I loved her.

So far, I am told I am lucky to be alive as it is. For this, I am absolutely grateful.

I have so many people I love and have loved. I don’t want to go anywhere.

I want to celebrate being alive. 2018 was rough. I am not the only person in my family to nearly lose their life in a sudden accident this year. We are blessed to be here right now.

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Bilateral Pulmonary Embolisms (blood clots in lungs)- in pain and in hospital, but still alive, so far

I haven’t been updating my hysterectomy saga, as I’ve been recuperating- or trying to.

Almost died this week, and am still in hospital. I have Factor V Leiden, a genetic condition that makes me prone to blood clots- and they formed after my surgery.

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I am in shock.

Dr came in, they found two blood clots, on either side of my lungs. One had already burst into many bits- or ‘fillings’-I am being put on Eliquis to dissolve them and must be on this med for at least 3 months… then I see the hematologist again after.

It feels like pneumonia or bronchitis with a bloody copper taste in my mouth- stabbing pains, numbness, shortness of breath, and chest pains.

They are likely a result of my surgery and Factor V Leiden.

I am very fortunate, as they somehow bypassed my heart and didn’t kill me instantly. I had been having chest pains and difficulty breathing everyone at first presumed was anxiety.

They are keeping me at least another day or two for a heart study, to make sure I don’t have a hole in my heart.

(Update: heart is great, no holes)

MRI of brain is clear of stroke, thank goodness. My headache is still crazy bad, so they are going to give me toradal once and put me back on my usual bp meds.

I KNEW something was wrong- when they say ‘feelings of doom’, it is real. I was worried I wouldn’t be leaving here at one point today. My chest hurt so badly. I try joking things away, but this is still a bit of a shock to me.

As of Aug. 9, still in hospital. I just had another chest xray, pain comes and goes and I sometimes feel like I am suffocating. Doc says this is definitely from my surgery. Even on lovenox injections, these can still form. SO scary.

FYI, I am not wanting to die.