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If I Died Tomorrow…

If I died tomorrow, I would have lived a wonderful, full, exciting life.

I’ve been so blessed- I’ve done EVERYTHING I’ve ever wanted to do, everything I’ve ever dreamed of! I’ve lived all over the world, visited so many places, met so many wonderful people.

I have 4 amazing, healthy children. I’ve had so much love in my life that I can scarcely believe it. I’ve traveled, had infamy (fame is no fun), met incredible people, been poor, been rich, been thin, been plump, been spoiled, been resourceful, had wonderful health- and scary bad health.

I was diagnosed with the autoimmune disorder lupus in my 40s- and with Factor V Leiden (a clotting disorder) when I was pregnant with Maisie. Both are genetically inherited. I had 2 TIAs (small strokes) in my early 40s, which were explained by the conditions I have.

Honestly, I think it’s the adversity that’s the best wake up call. The Universe sometimes has to grab you by the scruff of your neck and shake sense into you. It happened to me and thank GOODNESS it did. I would DEFINITELY consider my ‘conditions’ to be a blessing in disguise. They made me appreciate life and stop and smell (and plant) the roses.

If you would have told me 15-10-even 7 years ago that I would be starting over with a newborn baby at 45, wearing almost no makeup, not worrying about my wardrobe, not doing theater or acting anymore, I would have laughed at you.

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so not me anymore

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vanity can be ok, but too much focus on it and you lose sight of what’s important

I was a shallow bitch, lemme tell ya. I was full of anxiety and worried about things that didn’t matter at the end of the day.

Maybe the stuff I love now doesn’t matter to 99.9 percent of people, but it does to me and makes me so happy- which is enough.

I spent a majority of my life with chronic depression and anxiety and now- POOF!

GONE.

It’s amazing to me. Being happy is amazing to me. I love it.

Now I sit here thinking about bucket lists and the only thing I can think of is this:

I would love to live long enough to watch my kids all grow up and have grandkids.

That’s it, that’s all.

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I was in the hospital all yesterday evening

my 2nd IV, after they blew out a vein in my arm

my 2nd IV, after they blew out a vein in my arm

My father had cataract surgery yesterday morning and I went with Maisie and my mother to bring him there.

Out of the blue, I felt a sharp pain in my right shoulder blade. It worsened as time wore on, eventually my entire right hand was also numb.

Later that afternoon I called my doctor and was going to come in to see her.

About an hour after calling her, my LEFT arm/hand started to feel numb and breathing became difficult.

Since I have Lupus (a genetic autoimmune disorder) and Factor V Leiden (another genetic thick blood clotting issue), I called the doc again and she told me to get to the ER.

“Better safe than dead” were her words.

Not wanting to worry my father, who was recovering from surgery at my house, I simply asked him if he could watch Maisie while I ran quickly to see my doctor.

While I drove myself to the Emergency Room, the pain became nearly unbearable. I worried I was going to pass out before getting there. Luckily, I made it with no problems.

They did an EKG immediately, gave me an injection of some pain med that starts with a PH or F, then took tests to check for blood clots, did X-rays. The initial pain med did little more than make me dizzy, so eventually they gave me morphine. THAT barely worked, so I ended up with an injection of valium as well.

My blood clotting test came back too high, which scared the crap out of me, so they whisked me down the hall for an angio CT scan. While pumping the contrast dye through the crook of my arm, I felt a sharp pain.

Yay! They blew my vein.

I was sent back to my room and had to take ANOTHER blood test to check for heart attack. During the analysis, the machine breaks down.

Double yay!

Eventually I was discharged- they believe I have ANOTHER herniated disc in my spine.

My child is the destroyer of spines- I am convinced.

I was given a prescription for valium and instructions to call my doctor.

Now I have an appointment tomorrow at 10 am and I can do very little but lay in bed.

I had a lovely hour long massage today, which helped so much.

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Over 40? Need a Fertility Boost? Try Ubiquinol! It (ACCIDENTALLY) Worked For Me~

Let me preface this by saying I DO NOT REPRESENT THIS COMPANY NOR AM I SELLING ANYTHING!  I just want people to know what worked for me…

I have genetic autoimmune disease (lupus), high blood pressure, Factor V Leiden (blood clotting disorder), and MTHFR mutation- all things that can prevent later in life pregnancies from being successful and can cause miscarriage- yet I carried a HEALTHY baby to term at 45 because of this stuff!

Our first snuggle

Our first snuggle

After a ‘certain age’, our eggs start to get genetically ‘wonky’ and we generally don’t have as many as we did when we were younger, the experts say.

This is why there is such a high rate of miscarriages in many women over 40.  Their eggs were not as genetically ‘sound’ as they used to be- chromosomal issues can run rampant… again, this is what the ‘experts’ say.

I wasn’t trying to get pregnant with Maisie.  I was minding my own business, trying to get healthy and fit- and combat the lethargy that was creeping up on my aging body.  Someone told me about Ubiquinol and I happened to receive a free bottle of the stuff from a company called Naturewise Ubiquinol (on Amazon.com).  I took the stuff as directed and three months later- SURPRISE!  I was pregnant.

** the dosage I took was 100 mg 2x/day for the first 2 weeks- then 100 mg 1x a day after…

How did this happen?

Well, from this website I learned:

“CoQ10 is considered by many to be the miracle nutrient because almost every living cell relies on it for energy production. An important fact that you may not know is that the body requires certain levels of CoQ10 to function properly. If these blood levels drop, the body becomes more susceptible to disease and premature aging. This is why CoQ10 is so vital to the health of both the male and female reproductive system; most importantly egg and sperm health. But to truly understand why CoQ10 is so important to health, you must first learn what it is and why its most biologically active form, Ubiquinol is a key player in improving egg and sperm health.”

ALSO:

“There are two forms of CoQ10, ubiquinone and Ubiquinol. CoQ10 starts off as ubiquinone and then is converted within the cell to the more powerful Ubiquinol. Ubiquinol is considered one of the most powerful antioxidants.

CoQ10 is a considered a “vitamin-like” nutrient because it is synthesized in the membrane of human cells, but it is also obtained in small amounts through dietary intake. It is most abundantly found in organ meats, but can also be found in dark leafy green vegetables like spinach, kale and broccoli, nuts, seafood, and meat. Though the amounts of leafy greens a person would need to consume to obtain therapeutic amounts of CoQ10 would be high. That is why nutritional supplementation of CoQ10 and/or Ubiquinol is suggested. Most all CoQ10 supplements available are in the form of ubiquinone. Ubiquinol is different in that it is the most biologically active form of coenzyme Q10 and does not need to be converted by the body. Ubiquinol is eight times more potent than ubiquinone.”


To sum up the above:  Over 40s should NOT take coq10, instead you take UBIQUINOL because we can convert it more readily into a usable form that older bodies need.

Another website has even more interesting information for people who are trying to get pregnant over 40:

Suggested: If taking Coenzyme Q10 ,  800-1000mg/day is recommended. If takingUbiquinol , 300-600mg/day is recommended. (With both forms, if egg quality is poor, take a little more.)

Be sure to take it with some fat or with a meal to enhance absorption. Take it for at least 3 months prior to conception, preferably 6 months. Stop taking either after embryo transfer or positive pregnancy test (not because of any recognized danger but simply as a precaution).

Caution: If you take CoQ10 or Ubiquinol late at night, it could keep you awake, much like a strong cup of coffee. Also, taking too much CoQ10 overall can lower your blood pressure, so it’s not a good idea to take it if you’re on certain medications. Check with your doctor.


Coenzyme Q10 and Ubiquinol
are essentially the same thing. The only difference is that ubiquinol is a purer, more absorbable form of CoQ10, which is why you need to take less of it. Since both are expensive, ubiquinol may be more economical, but it can be harder to find. “

“Before now, Western medicine has always firmly believed that the aging of eggs was irreversible. But according to a recent study involving CoQ10 and aging mice (equivalent to women in their 40s), it may actually be possible to improve egg quality and reverse some age-related infertility. In the study, the aging mice given CoQ10 got nearly double the number of ovulated eggs and consequently had litters nearly twice the size as the control group. What’s more, 100% of the mice given CoQ10 got pregnant compared to only 70% of the control.”

I started taking ubiquinol again when Maisie was 2 months old, because I needed the energy to deal with a newborn and I love how I feel on it.  It is suggested that you discontinue taking it during pregnancy, which is what I did.

Other things to remember when supplementing with ubiquinol:

1.  It takes THREE (3) MONTHS MINIMUM FOR ubiquinol to rejuvenate your eggs.  Be patient and don’t freak out if your periods get weird in the interim- it happened to me and others before we fell pregnant.

2.  If you have low blood pressure, keep in mind that ubiquinol can lower it even further.

3.  It works to improve sperm health as well, men CAN take this.

4.  More isn’t always better.  100-300 mg a day is enough.  Ubiquinol is far more potent than regular coq10.

5.  After giving birth, ubiquinol really helps give you a bit more energy.

If any of this information helps you and/or you’ve gotten pregnant with the help of this supplement, let me know!  Leave a comment!  I’d love to hear from you 🙂

So far, at least 12-15 ladies I know from the Facebook over 40 groups have gotten pregnant/given birth with the aid of ubiquinol, even after the fertility procedures and doctors had given up.

Sticky vibes and blessings to all of you!

Maisie, my miracle ubiquinol baby, playing her piano at 9 months

Maisie, my miracle ubiquinol baby, playing her piano at 9 months